Sunday, 30 December 2012

Snap Shot Expressions




When I went to Ottawa for Christmas I stayed one night with my good friend Chloe from summer camp... We played this game that made me alugh so hard I had tears rolling down my face.
How you play is like this... I held the camera up above us and one of us would make up a situation and then we made the expression that we would make if that was true... but you only have a split second to make it and I took the photo the second after we said it.... This is what happened. I wrote the situation under each photo...











Squirrels are going extinct



Your dog died
Narnia is in your closet!
"You have to sleep outside my house!"
"You got chosen to spend a year saving the whales in the Arctic" (i dont like the cold, hence my face)

"Your hand is on fire!"

Saturday, 22 December 2012

A grateful heart

Last night I drove down to Missisagua to go to the OPC Christmas party for the summer staff...
I was excited but I had no idea what a gift this night would be!

To see and hug and reconnect with some of the wonderful women that I met over the summer was such a joy and I am so thankful that I got to do that... Sophie, Bethany, Esther, Ali, Anne, Katherine... you are such a blessing.
There were two girls in particular that I was so grateful to see and spend time with again...
I know a lot of people who love Jesus and you can see that in their lives, but there are only a few people whose lives make me want to love Jesus more... this is two of them.

Becca Berends is one of the people I am most thankful that I got to spend time with this summer and be sisters for a few months. I was never expecting to see her last night, I hadnt even thought about it because she goes to school in Wisconsin, so to walk in and see her there brought me so much joy! her heart longs for God and she is so at home in Him.... I know she was such an incredible blessing to the girls who came to camp this summer, as the Pioneer section head. I cannot even begin to write how surprised and thankful I was to spend last  night with this girl!


This is Steph Gribben... We would have sleepovers and listen to the thunder and rain outside between sessions over the summer. Steph loves community and creativity and freedom and I know her heart desires so much to see God's kingdom come here on earth NOW. I knew she was coming to the party last night and she was the main reason I was excited about going, and I was so thankful and delighted to get to sit and talk with her about the past few months and what God is doing around us.



All in all, I left feeling so full and joyful. I thought it might be hard to see everyone for just a few hours then have to say goodbye again but instead I was just so aware of what a gift this was and I didnt feel sad at all, just grateful.
Oh girls camp, how you have stolen some of my heart...

Sunday, 16 December 2012

What's joyful about Christmas?

Around Christmas we hear a lot about joy... joy to the world,  spread the joy, joyful and triumphant, shouts of joy... Apparantly its a bit of a theme this time of year.

Why is this?

If you take a good look at the original Christmas story... look past the traditions and stereotypes and inflatble santas... and I have to honestly ask myself, what's joyful about Christmas?

The land of Israel was under the rule of a cruel tyrant king, who fed off jealousy and whose insecurities caused him to kill some of his own children and his wife because he feared they would try to take his throne. It was a politically unstable time and people would've been on edge.
Mary and Joesph found themsleves in the middle of a family scandal with rumours of adultery and betrayal and people wouldve been talking about them behind their backs, not good for someone who relies on word of mouth for his carpentary trade.
Then when Mary, who was most likely still a teenager, was heavily pregnant, they both had to travel to Jerusalem to take part in a census. Im sure the thought of walking for a week or so to an overcrowded city with people from all over the country and an air of political unrest was not the most joyful thing to think about for Joseph and his pregnant fiance. When they got there, every accomodation was full, so the tired couple were forced to stay in a barn out the back. The traditional pictures make this look like a cosy happy place where lambs cuddled up with Jesus... but if you look at history and culture, it was more likely a cave in the hillside, full of animal crap and bugs. I know not everyone feels they need to be in the hospital to give birth, but even for this tough Jewish girl there is a lot that could have gone wrong.
Again tradition serves us falsely in picturing the wise men in the manger with this little family... It would've taken an estimate of more than a year for the wise men to get there, long and hard journey through some tough country.
Here we hear from the corrupt king Herod again who heard about this baby that they were calling King of the Jews... Herod wasnt a full Jewish man from the line of David which was what all the other kings before
him had been.. so he lived in constant fear of his throne being overthrown. So his logical response to this new threat was to try and eliminate the competiton... so began a movement of terror in which he had all the baby boys in the area where Jesus was supposed to have been massacred. The soldiers would've gone house to house ripping the children from their parents arms and slaughtering them systematically so as not to miss any potential king. The population of that area is said to have been about 1000 at the time, so lets say about 20 families with baby boys under two years old. The community would've been broken, shattered by grief and anger but not being able to do anything for fear of being killed too. The bible talks about the sound of weeping being heard throughout the land, mothers who just lost their children pointlessly.
We can relate to this scale of grief in a way much closer to home this year after what happened last week in Connecticut.
Joesph has fled with his family after being warned in a dream by God... he took his wife and son and ran to Egypt. So now the holy family of God is living as refugees in a foreign land, running from Herod to protect their little boy from being murdered. Jospeh was a devout Jewish man believing in the One true God... now he's thrown into the Egyptian culture of thousands of gods that demand sacrifice and money and blood to appease them. They have no friends or family and are living in constant fear and most likely some poverty too by now.

Not the most joyful scene ever. 
Instead Christmas seems to be surrounded by danger and fear and pain.

But amongst the overcrowded, fearful grief filled scene, covered in animal crap and a difficult birth, living as refugees under the rule of a cruel man... is the raw stark message that GOD HAS COME.

Christmas doesnt mean that things are okay now or that people wont hurt eachother or that pain and fear and loneliness and emptiness and grief will stop. But it is an ancient joy that was born thousands of years ago, a hope that this isnt everything, there is something bigger than us and He hasnt given up on us! God isnt fixing things from up in heaven but instead He came down into this mess and became like us, leading us back to His Dad.

The joy at Christmas time isnt fluffy or shiny or inflatable but instead it comes from a deep place, it's raw and messy and hard to understand but its better than anything.


Sunday, 9 December 2012

Expectation

Last night my friends were watching a movie, one of those feel good American college football ones where the coach transforms a kids life and the losing team goes on to be the state champions... something like that anyway, we all know and love them. Anyway, i just walked in and watched one scene...
The skinny kid that no one ever thought would do anything great was given the football jersey and position of one of the best players. He went to the coach and said there must have been a mistake, that he wasnt up to this, that he couldnt fill this guys shoes, that other people would be better blah blah blah... all the same old excuses that i wouldve also tried.
but the coach just looked at him and said "I was the one that hung that number on your locker, are you saying that I made a mistake? The minute I see you're not worthy of that jersey I will personally come and take it off you."

The kid just looked at him and walked away... but after that you see him training harder than the other players, working out at home, studying the different plays, watching the other teams and generally being the best guy out there where before he could barely keep up.

I see this in real life all the time...
At my high school there were the kids who never did any homework, they didnt bring assignments, they didnt study... and after a while the teachers stopped asking about it, they didnt expect them to do any work so why would they?
What would happen if there was just one teacher who said "I'm giving you this assignment, I know that you are able to do it well... you have a month and I expect you to do well. i expect it to be worth a good grade and if it doesnt we're going to sit down and talk about what happened"
Or if their coach said, "Right now you're not keeping up with the team and unless something changes I have other people who want to play in your postion... but I believe in you, I know that if you work and train and put in what I know you have in you, then you can be the best player on this team and be out on the field every game."

So often I hear older people talking about teenagers, saying they are lazy and dont know how to work and arent grateful and want the easy option for everything... If that's what they say about us, what's stopping us becoming that? Its what they expect anyway..
But what if instead they said " Young people have imagination and drive and they are willing to work to change the world into something better. They are innovative and strong and we expect them to step up and do something good." If that's what they expect of us then maybe thats what we would become.

There is a book written by two teenage brothers called "Do Hard Things" by Alex and Brett Harris.. I fully recommend it, they talk about this a lot and their lives back up the idea that expectation changes how we do things. There is a quote at the beginning of the book which I love, goes like this...

"Most people dont expect you to understand what we're going to tell you in this book. And even if you understand tey dont expect you to care. And even if you care, they dont expect you to do anything about it. And even if you do something about it, they dont expect it to last. well we do."



Friday, 7 December 2012

Staff Retreat

The past few days I went on a staff retreat with my OE team to a nearby cottage...
We did so much and laughed so much and I could never write it all but I will just do a few highlights and show some of the best pictures so you get some kind of idea of what we got up to...

Packing 2 weeks worth of food for three days...Playing mafia for hours and realising you no longer trust the human race...bush bashing (they say bush wacking here) up sheer cliff faces because we think we're too tough for the road...Watching the sunset over the lake sitting up on the dive tower...Listening to Hans read Blue like Jazz as the sun goes down...playing Risk and owning all of Africa and half of America then getting totally wiped out... Unending Your Mum jokes...Good conversation about sin and freedom and faith...Eating all together at one table even tough it means pretty much sitting on eachother... Washing dishes in the lake but having to break the ice first... watching some of my team jump in the water then come flying out with screams of pain...Seeing Eric again and looking at all of his photos from his NZ holiday, seeing your home from a different perspective... Walking to the outhouse in the middle of the night because you thought it was a good idea to drink lots of pineapple tea before bed...Playing cards and it turning into world war three...

These people have become my family here and I loved just getting to spend time with them when we were'nt working and to be silly and have good conversations... Was such a blessing.










Friday, 30 November 2012

Nobody told me...

I've now been away from home for more than seven months, through summer, fall and then now winter. There are lots of things that I've found out about living by yourself on the other side of the world in extreme seasons that would have been useful to know that nobody told me...
So, for the benefit of anyone who may be thinking about doing something like this, I am going to explain a few of these...

Firstly, check twice before you leave the country that you dont need any kind of visa to get into the country you're going to. Don't believe the travel agent. I didnt think about this since I was only going to be in the States for a few weeks... this ended with me lining up for an hour, making up details about myself and paying them lots of money so that I could get to the plane on time.

Watch your water cup on those wobbly plane tray tables... I thought it would be a good idea to pretend to be asleep so I didnt have to talk to the scary looking man beside me... I didnt just spill it on him once but twice because after the first time I tried even harder to be asleep!

Squirrels are not exotic animals... yes they are fun and cute but to avoid potential embarrasment, dont throw yourself against the window the first time you see one across the back yard.

Canadian locks are different...For weeks I didnt know why every door I tried to open was locked yet I could never work out how! For future reference, you push the handle in and twist it slightly to lock it.

Just because you swim in the lake every day during the summer does not mean you can forget about having a shower for two and a half months. This is important. I am pleased to report that I didnt make this mistake personally, however I did have to live with people who did...

They tell you that North America and New Zealand both speak English, but this isnt entirely true... here is a few handy translations...
Tea = Dinner
Jandel = Flip Flop
Jumper/Jersey = Sweater
Togs = Bathing Suit
Duvet = Comforter
Sneakers = Runners
Boot = Trunk
Bonnet = Hood

Everything that you buy in a supermarket has both French and English on it because these are both national languages of Canda. But sometimes the people who stock the shelves happen to put all the french facing out, just by co-incidence. If this happens, do not panic and assume that you can never buy groceries because its all in a different language so you're probably going to starve and die... just keep calm and turn the can around. you will find the english no problem.

In the winter it does get colder than Nelson... if you lick your lips they will freeze and it hurts. If you dont wear a hat your ears will hurt for the rest of the day. Dont assume your legs wont get cold, its not okay to wear shorts in November.

If you want to avoid a painful death due to impaling, check above the door for icicles before kicking the door frame to get the snow off your boots. I forgot the law of gravity also applies to icicles and narowly missed one the length of my arm last night.

Just because the lake is frozen doesnt mean you can walk on it... enough said.

Crunchy Peanut butter is a rare commodity. They have about ten types of smooth but who wants to eat that stuff?!

Canadian phone plans are very different... do not continue loading money on it if you havent talked to them about what plan you are really on, no matter what the automated voice tells you! Those things are dollar suckers!

Im sure there are so many more... but it wouldnt be so fun if you didnt get to find out some things by yourself!

Saturday, 17 November 2012

To the ones I dont talk to...

This post is dedicated to those people back home and in other parts of Canada and America and Germany and Australia that I call my friends and love dearly, but havent really been talking to for the past seven months...

I knew that when I came over here I wouldnt be able to keep up good contact with more than a handful of people, which even that has proved to be a struggle with my internet, time zone and work schedule issues. But there are people who I wish that I got to talk to more or at all who have blessed me so much and who I am so grateful for... my Teapot leader team, Danni and Josh, Nathan, Annie, Jared... and everyone else, you know who you are. Friends from school that are doing exciting things this year... Lucy, Katrina, Hannah, Kelsey, Kate, Emma, Abby... again, you know who you are. The wonderful women and girls who I met over the summer here and loved... Elena, Avery, Chloe,Becca, Nicole, Georgia, Shelley... i wish i could be there next summer with you all.
The incredible family I have at my church back home... Laura, Daryl, Julie, Ross, Helen, Donald, May...i miss Hope more than I can say and am looking forward to being back with you all soon.

I know there are times that I could've tried harder to keep in contact and to ask how you are doing and tell you what is happening here...for those times I apologise and hope that when i get back we can make up for it and spend time together again. I also know though that if I tried to stay in contact with too many people then I wouldnt be fully present here either. I have this incredible year to live somewhere so beautiful in such a unique and dynamic community, doing a job that I will never again have the chance to do... so in a way, I feel that its okay to completely leave some of my other life back home, to walk away and not think about it, then to return joyfully to it at the end. in leaving my home life at home then I am able to create a home here and to be fully present and living in what God has provided for me here.
Finding the balance of this has been more difficult that I had anticipated though, so to those of you who I have hurt by not speaking to or emailing at all, i truly am sorry.
There will one day be a time when all of God's children will be together in the same place and the same time zone... i look forward to this!

And to that handful of people who have not let me be silent and have gone out of their way to talk to me and ask me how Im doing and set up skype dates even if it means they have to get up at one in the morning... thank you. You have meant more to me than I can try and describe. When you ask me questions and want to see photos and tell me stories about what is happening there.... i feel loved and known and sought after.
Olivia, Chloe, Jeremiah, Amber, Jenna, Vanessa, Jade, Mum, Dad, Kiri, Rachel, Valerie, Bridget...
Thank you. So much.