Transition.

So, here I am sitting in my new room at Adventure Camp by myself. My stuff is scattered all around me on the floor because as of yet I have no shelves or drawers. Yesterday I said goodbye to most of my friends and today I said goodbye to the rest of them. They all got in their cars and drove away while I walked around the lake to my new home.

I don’t really even know what I feel right now.

Sad mostly.

 Not lonely or lost or bitter but just sad.

But in the midst of that sadness I feel joy too and I feel the solidity of Who I’m standing on.

God blessed me with a time of great community and now this week while my Outdoor Ed team is still on their way, in this week of aloneness He will draw me away and love me like this.

I choose to put my hope in God and trust in nothing less than the hands that hold me.

I will find my joy in God alone and I know He will provide for me and uplift me, He will not allow me to fall.

There is a verse in Psalm 130 that says, “I will wait upon the Lord. I will wait upon the Lord and put my hope in His word. I will wait upon the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.”

This is the cry of my heart this week... I will wait upon You Lord, for You to fill me. I will not turn to anything else. I will stand firm upon the promises of God and nothing else.

I’m learning that I can be sad and joyful in the same moment. To grieve and rejoice in the same breath.