I choose to trust You Papa

Often when I feel worried or upset, when the people i love are hurting and I am scared for them, or when i look at the brokeness in the world and how people are hurting and killing eachother and not caring at all about the earth. When I hear about wars and famines and political unrest, when my friends are fighting battles and I see them struggling so much but dont know how to love them...
During these times, sometimes I struggle to feel trust for God. To me it looks for all the world like God has thrown the towel in on that situation and left for something else more important. I can't see anything good or beautiful in this and just want to see it end but it doesnt. I dont understand why God doesnt intervene and do something, take control, bring justice, rescue His children from certain harm...

But I'm realising more and more about how I can still choose to trust God, for that to be a concious decision, of the mind which eventually leads to the heart but often not right away.
This has happened a lot recently which is why its on my heart to write about. I have been praying, proclaiming who God is, speaking out His promises then choosing to believe them...
God You are good and You are powerful. You are still in control of this and I choose to believe You are bigger than any mess. You say that You love us, You say that You are faithful and will never leave us.
God it doesnt look like this, but You have been faithful everytime and I will trust that You are in this too. Your ways are higher than mine, Your thoughts and Your wisdom is so much greater than mine...

This doesnt bring about the feeling of trust or the feeling that things are under control and I dont suddenly see the good in the brokeness... But I am laying down my pride which assumes I know better than God and choosing to submit to something so much greater.
And when I do this, I feel God taking joy in my broken, messy trust in Him... not because I have taken a big step of faith or done anything at all really... but because He loves the hearts of His children.